The Moment Of Silence

The Teen sits down subtly as a tear rolls down his cheek, the councilor looks at the Teen leans forward with a serious look. He dims the lights and lifts his note pad up and Begins to speak

Mr. Clark: "Mr. Shields,  Or Robert if you don't mind me calling you"

Robert: *pipes in for a moment* "no I don't mind sir"

Mr. Clark: "Alright Robert, My name is Mr. Clark I am here to help you today. If you don't mind me asking what happened?" He looked intently at Robert then back at his notepad.

Robert: "It happened all to fast to understand. I came home one night, I will admit I was at a party, I didn't have a drop of alcohol, at least I don't think so"

Mr Clark: *interrupts for a moment* "What do you mean "you don't think so?"" He scratches a note down in his notepad.

Robert: *Stifles a whimper and speaks* "I felt fuzzy on my way home. Not like a drunk but a sick spinning feeling. You know that feeling you get when you spin in circles and look up in the sky?"

Mr. Clark: "Yes?" he said in a acquisitive tone.

Robert: "It felt like that but with fear added behind it. A fear I had never felt before. Like I was afraid of everything that came into sight" *He says this last sentence while leaning forward and grabbing his arms* "I walked in the house and she looked at me worried as if something was wrong"

Mr. Clark: "Who is she?"

Robert: *another tear rolls down his eyes and whimpers out his response* "My sister."

Mr. Clark: jots another note down "okay continue"

Robert: Wipes the tears from his face takes a deep breath and speaks again "She had gotten up to give me a hug and I was frightened... I couldn't comprehend who she was... My head wouldn't stop spinning my heart was racing and I was backed into a corner... I... don't remember anything after that except her blood in my hands... Her crawling away from me. I saw the misery in her face... I had to help her."

Mr. Clark: *Puts his note pad down looks at Robert worried* "What did you do then child?"

Robert: *Lets out a cry* "I did it... I PUT HER OUT OF HER MISERY" He cried harder then before and held his head in his hands.

The kind doctor rests his hand on Roberts shoulder. He tosses it off as if angry

Robert: "Don't touch me! I am a MONSTER!" He crawled up in a little ball on the couch and started biting his lip.

Mr. Clark: "Child do you wish to stop?" He sat back and relaxed in the chair with a face of misery

Robert: "No... I must accept what I did" He started digging his nails into his skin leaving red marks and scratches down his arms. "I... feel horrible... But at the same time I felt I did the right thing... The Power I felt, knowing and FEELING I could play as god and control someones life... But it hurt... knowing my own sister. Was this some sick and twisted dream? That's it I just haven't woken up yet" Starts rocking back and forth biting the tip of his thumb biting through the skin. "The power, The feeling. I couldn't hear anything that was being screamed. My mind numbed by the feeling of control."

Mr. Clark: looks at the time "Child please relax. It is time to go."

The door opens and the room fills with fire and en-wraps Robert and swallows him whole. You see everything go black. The stage lights up again and their is a funeral being held for April and Robert Shields the preacher stands at the head and speaks with conviction.

Preacher: It is a shame to see these children die as they did. Horrible to hear. Dead by his guilt and own hand... May god have mercy on his soul. Her body rests beside him. Their love everlasting as family shall always be... May god carry her in his wings. A moment of silence, for the ones lost that fine night.

Who are you?

Clueless
A figure in the distance
A thought that came to my mind
A memory?
Or a figure of my imagination.
I dont know what to do.
My heart lies within the world of music
But you play the eighth notes of my heart
You hold the whole notes of my mind
And you hit the keys of my soul
Its a musical in my body and I feel
Your cold hands on my face
Its like a hand of ice that freezes at the touch.
Confused to how to feel I stop breathing
I stop going with the motions and I continue this
Long broken rode
And I drink from the fountain the brings me to life
Burned from head to toe I see the smile from my soul.
And I go on another day.
And survive this unwanted world.

Review
I looked at my burned hand and saw a smiley face then got a thought in my mind of one of my friends.
These just come out easy.

Its a secret.

Let me fill you in.
I am not who you think I am
I am not some secret to be held
I am disturbed
I am naive
I am an angel with no wings
I am human with no heart
I know the feeling when the needle touches the
Skin, but I don't know the hysteria of the poison
That enters the body
Broken but awaken
Shattered but living
Confused but continuing on
I feel different then what I could handle.
It feels like this house of sin is on fire
I feel it burning inside me.
Lust walks out alive
A human is dedicated to one sin
But it takes a bit of understanding to know
Which one you belong to.
Look inside the house you built in your mind
Look at your sanctuary
What do you see?
The seed's of an apple?
The ferry mans fee?*
The love of your life?
The mistress in your life?
Do not be mistaken this world could not
Waken the monsters inside
But by your choice the world could turn around.
Does it feel right knowing
The world stands at your hand like a marble in a child's
Fingers?
Or are you shocked that by the flick of the wrist a human
falls to their knees in shame.
I do not know why my heart speaks these words but I do
Know this is my little secret.
But the world can ask
And the buildings will burn
Your 7 will become your best friend.
And so I leave with the question once again.
What is left to do?


* The Ferry Mens due is a myth for the afterworld to make it across you need to pay him gold

Review
To be completely honest...
I got nothin xD
The only thing that came to mind was the music i'm listening to AND th play A friend of mine was in
And I have been addicted to Full Metal Alchemist

Becoming Insane

Remind me again
I wake up
And I fall again
A prisoner of my own mind
A Monster in the cage of my mind
Could you pull me out if I went to far in?
Wake me up
I might change again.
The shadows seem to play with me as if I was not there.
Believe me I feel their grasp on my heart and mind
Watch as I stand and show the world
I am just as crazy as the person beside me
I coffin that reads the one who left here alone
And I step in
Cautious of the world around me
It locks behind me and the moss grows rapidly
Crazy but willing
I go mad to the sound of silence
But accept the matter of insanity
As I wake up with her beside me
I know not what this trick has done to me
But I know I am crazy again
Confused and used
Unsure what to expect..
What do I do next?

Review
Odd things have been going on lately and I am driven mad by it. A love sick puppy or a curious soul.
Who knows what this week may bring

It's A Confession

The only thing that separates
Me from the world is this fragile heart
Hard throw away
Easy to step on
But how could I deliver it?
Put a stamp on it and call it good?
Pardon me mail man sorry for this mess
Could you send this bag for me to the noted adress?
I couldn't wake up in time to for the mail send
I stayed motionless waiting for a response from you.
Staring at the mailbox hoping you will come too
And write me back.
Realize its been
Four months
Two weeks
Five Days
It doesn't take a letter that long to send
Did something happen?
Was it all in my head
A spirit on the material plane
Or was mine just not sent?
How lost could I be for not realizing what
My problem is. I no longer have control.
My mind separated from my heart.
My soul replaced with an idea.
A shout to the outside world
A call to the lost childern
You are not alone.
And Together we will stand tall.
We will not be wronged.
We will survive.

Review
Don't take this the wrong way. I wrote this one about my feeling from sending real letters to my friend in Washington I have been worried about her and it drives me nuts not having a good communication with her.

The Monsters Dream

Timid and alone
Unwanted and unneeded
But she says other wise
Did you see her open her arms and
Heart to me?
Were you there when she whispered
To me the secret that she had been hiding?
It was elegant
The Secret kept me awake
Like a shot of adrenaline I kept walking I didn't know where I
Was going or how I was getting there
All I knew is that it had to be done.
Could you tell me who I am walking by?
I seem to have gone blind to the fact of
Listening to my heart.
Could you wake me up if my nightmare
Got a hold of me?
Or would I be stuck in the wave of fire
Frozen beneath the surface
Don't let drown
The oxygen was too much to handle.
Funny thing you think
A child in a cradle oblivious to the surroundings
A kid in a bed watching his closet
A man lies awake staring at his ceiling.
Tell me is that what i am waiting for next?
The angel comes and goes but the nightmare stays
My heart becomes swallowed by the memories I can
Not erase. Please don't let me sleep my dreams keep
Me insane
I am not turning into another prodigy for sick and
Twisted dream
Like a Frankenstein in a live body
Like an angel in the enemy haven
I can stand up alone
But the journey itself I cant handle alone
My angel is here but I'm scared to see what may happen
If I wake up.
Tell me is it safe to stand up?
Or is it a trick
A plan?
Or a blast to send me to the alternative matter.
O' let me sleep its nothing I haven't seen before
I am done with running from it
The indecisive matter of mind is no longer standing
Let a sleeping dog lie
Let a human being sleep
Let a monster dream

Review
This is about my internal thoughts of my dreams
sometimes I feel I cant handle them and other times
I cant wait but see them
I wrote this to see if i could understand where I am coming from.

My One Dream (review)

My One Dream

Cold,

Lost,

Alone.

On the edge of a lake I look out in the mid night

Ocean and watch as the waters sway to the shine

Of the moon.

Silence fills the air

All that could be heard is the rain that dropped on

The ocean floor

But was I alone when I saw the

Discolored ripple in the middle of the ocean?

Like a plague the ring of fire burst across the sea

And you lied there before me

Used and mangled

Tipped and tangled.

The dream still continues on.

It’s warped

I see her looking down at me

And I am drenched but motionless

I try with all m strength to move a single muscle

And nothing seems to go

 I can’t seem to tell what’s happening

But I fall off the docks

As I sick to the bottom

Hailey’s Comet flies by and I wake up sitting at the edge

The cold steel fragments my back and the cold feel of your

Hands run down across my neck and the red rippled ocean

Poisons me.

The dream still goes on

I still fall in and watch as the water freezes above me

The flame’s fall from the sky and fills the frozen pond

With it’s elegant dance

The dream feels it should end

 But I still sink

First my vision goes.

Then my sanity

I wake up to find myself locked in

This empty cell

Screaming for them to let me go

“I AM INOCENT”

The world betrays me.

How could this be?

Did they know before they mocked me?

Or did they throw away the key

I lay back down and see the world fall below me again

I see it in her eyes this time.

Fogged from the tears

She sees nothing but a reflection of me

Falling as the heavens fires bathe me

She gets clear minded and jumps in

But the Water solidifies

And she is locked out

She gazes up to see things in my view

Then it is I to see what happens

Sunk to the bottom

I feel the Iron key in my hand

Rust quickly as I pull it from my pocket

The moment I muster my last breath

The ice breaks and like glass resides into the skies

I open my eyes to see the ocean lie before me

And all I feel is the rains pitter-patter on my check

And her freezing grasp around me.

Trevor Pruitt

Review

This poem is writeen because of a nightmare i have often

You know those dreams that drive you mad because you have them so frequently?

those dreams you wish you could stop having but then become like a drug and you become anxious to see again?

this is one of those dreams for me

It changes in small ways frequently but it still changes

the one thing that keeps changing lately has been the color of the fire each color being correspodent to my emotion

Green- Happyish

Red- Scared

Blue- worried

Its like an emotional mood ring. though recently it was the angel that changed

It wasn't an angel it was the one who was saving me. She was there in both places but they didn't seem to know who each other were. The dream has more twists each day. 

In all honesty. The question That pops in my head is

Could she save me?

I feel so alone and unsure

Is this my subconscience

I don't know anymore. 

Cold and confused I know not what to do anymore.

This review gave me the realization.

I lost what the meaning was....

Trust Me

I know what I am doing
I know who I am and I know what to do
Could you honestly believe that I would
Let you down and watch you stumble?
Could you see me dropping you from this balcony
That was built on the sticks of our past?
Honestly
Do you know who I am?
Your pretty face that is my housing place
A demon in disguise
I see through your lies
But you see through me like clear glass
That is my downfall
I could not keep my mask up
You saw me for my true self
My lost and hopeless being
Like the end of the opera
You see his face
But you fall in love with me still
I am not alone as long as I hear your tone
Your lullaby your heart your face
I do not believe that this is my place
I may be invited to this slumber
But my insomnia keeps me away
Locked away like a child I am afraid
But the melody plays
And I stay sane


(I am also reviewing the other poem here to)
Both these poems that I wrote I made dedicated to a close friend of mine we have a song its called Zelda's Lullaby (Referring to legend of Zelda Ocarina of Time ) and that's both our favorite tune so every time we hear that song or we sing that song we think about each other and we feel not so alone when we are having a bad day.

"And all I Lov'd I Lov'd Alone"

Words spoken in the fashion of passion
Hearts in sync to the rhythm of our love
My words came from melody that i hear
In my head, Can you hear the same tone?
I am lost to the idea that this world is playing
A trick on me, Loki snickering in the background
Laughing at every mistake i make
Yet do you understand where I am coming from?
Do you understand what I am saying
Left is the Path I want to take. Up is the path
I need to take and right is where I should take
No matter where I go I I regret not saving you
Have you ever fallen into the sky?
Ever watched as the statue cried?
The eternal slumber that he feels is the remorse
I gather. But I must ask what path do you lay beyond?
The lullaby is beat into my head but your face still takes
It's place. The song never stops playing but the music box
Stopped working. How could it be that even after the music seized
The tune still could be heard?
Was it your little secret?
Or was it My clueless watch?
I can not wait to hear the sweet tune.
But alone I stand
Playing it over and over in my head